So. 9 DPO, huh? Surely, if I felt implantation the other day (like I think I did) at 6 DPO, I’d almost definitely get a BFP now, right? I mean, I know it takes a couple days for the HcG to build up in your system, but 3 days ought to be enough for at least a faint BFP. Bubby slept all night last night (totally jumping for joy inside right now, for real), and I got a solid 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep to build up my FMU. After all, my boobs are hurting way more today than they have been. Let’s do this!!
As you can plainly see, that’s about as BFN as BFN gets right there. Ugh. Once again, I was soooo sure I’d get to see those glorious two lines, and once again my hopes and dreams were dashed against the siding of my quaint little government housing. Dumb. I knew it was dumb before I pulled the damn test out … and yet, I did it anyway. Ya know something? The clinical definition of “insanity” is performing the same task over and over again, expecting different results. I suppose that would make just about every long term TTC-er clinically insane. I never thought about it like that! Jeez. I could’ve done without that.
Anyhoosits, I had a doctor’s appointment at 10:30 this morning, so I took John to my Mother’s so that I wouldn’t have to wrangle the Tiny Tyrant and fill out paperwork, talk to the Dr while changing a poopy diaper, etc. After said appointment, John and I hung out at Granny’s house for the afternoon. During the weekends while Matt is home, we don’t spend much time at my Mother’s house, so I try to spend a decent amount of time with her on Thursday and Friday so that she can spend lots of time with John. While he napped today I snuck off to Target to pick up a gift for a little girl having a birthday party this weekend. While I was there … I caved. I picked up a box of Clearblue +/- and a box of FRERs. It was dumb. Like I said: insane, remember?
Because I’m a glutton for punishment, I peed on one of each; well, dipped them into the same pee sample. I could’ve sworn I saw a very, very faint line on the Clearblue, so I dipped the FRER and I’m pretty sure it’s a BFN. I can see a line on both, but I’m not sure if it’s just the indent/antibody strip that I’m seeing or a no kidding line. In truth, that’s probably exactly what it is. Because that’s my luck.